No Tears:

This day, this date I lost someone more precious than I can express. I will not dredge up old pain. Old grief today. I have cried enough.

 Oceans

I cried oceans

I have cried sands

I have cried skies

I cried lands

I cried softly

I have cried loud

I have cried in secret

I have cried proud

I cried in bed

Alone in the dark

I cried in the garden

The street, the park.

I cried in the bath

So nobody would see

I cried on the train

The bus, in a car.

I cried myself sick

Swollen and blind

I cried myself angry

I cried myself kind

I cried without warning

I cried when I planned

I have cried oceans

I have cried lands.

So if today you see no tears

I have been crying

And crying

And crying for years.

 In Living

In living in remembering they live

In Shades and in half refelected light

The smell of hair: the warmth of breath

In living we are not utterly breft.

In living and in knowing

They live.

In the hazy warm of between

Gentle sleep and rude awake

We brave the day for their sweet sake.

Watching those who dare not speak

Press their grief and in darkness keep

To snuff out any warmth at all

Hot and burning tears might seep

Prize forgetting most of all.

I shall not ever shy away

From the warm memories, dreams that play

That turn to frozen dust in day

For in remembering they live.